Avery James Photography

Avery James Photography

Friday, December 17, 2010

Like a flood...

I was sitting here reading blog posts and I came across this one...and as much as I knew I shouldn't keep reading, I just felt so compelled to read their story anyways... http://roscommonacres.com/2010/12/what-happened/

Of course, it immediately brought back the emotions I have that are all currently held up by a giant floodwall...I read, and I cried, and I kept reading, and I relived those moments through this mother's eyes...because I know where she's been, and I know where she's headed...

The hardest part of reading this blog post was scrolling to a few posts afterwards (http://roscommonacres.com/) and seeing that she had posted stories just a couple of days before the horrible accident not having any clue what was going to happen 2 days later...it just made me remember how quickly life changes in an instant....one day you think you have all the time in the world to spend with your baby, and the next thing you know, time has run out much earlier than you would ever even consider the possibility.

I felt compelled to write something after reading her story because it's been so long since I've really written....written anything filled with true emotion the way I used to in those first couple of years...I can't even remember the last time I wrote about my little angel....it just hurts too much to do so....

And I'm not going to do it now either....but I wanted to just acknowledge this moment...for myself if anything....

My dear, sweet, sweet angel...I love you...I miss you...I think of you every day...and I hope you've made lots of other little angel friends along your way, such as the sweet little boy in the story in the above link.

For others reading this who have lost a child, or know someone who has, I encourage you to look into a support group called The Compassionate Friends.  They were truly a God-send for me in my deepest time of grief and now, 4 years later, I continue to be involved in the organization for so many reasons...

My angel, Avery James Lent

13 comments:

Kristen said...

I still have that picture up on my wall at work and still think of you and your angel often. Happy holidays to you and your family.

Avery James Photography said...

Thanks Kristen. I hope you are enjoying Mommy-hood and that your family is all doing well.

SweetLime313 said...

Sending you hugs my friend. Hoping that getting in touch with those feelings can bring you some comfort & comfort to those who are also experiencing a similiar loss.

Amy said...

You really never know what the future will bring. Sometimes it brings loss. I lost a little brother when I was 5, and I still remember that day...almost as if someone filmed it. Thanks for sharing something so close to you. I am sure that by now he has made lots of friends and is watching over you.
Hugs.
www.ohsosavvymom.com

Mika said...

Great photos!
Hi, I'm following from the blog hop.
I'd love a follow back at www.mikaspantry.blogspot.com
Thanks,
Mika

Nana Poppins said...

Im hoppin in from the weekend blog hops and wanted to stop to wish you a wonderful holiday season!

Nana Poppins (Patty)
http://www.nanapoppins.com

Jackie said...

Hi! Coming over to follow via the hop! I LOVE your header... SO cute! Hoping you can come by Mommy In The Baking and follow back. Have a great saturday night!
Jackie
www.mommyinthebaking.com

April said...

i'm following from the weekend blog hop! i hope you'll visit my blog and follow back!

best,
april

www.marineparents.blogspot.com

Frenchy said...

Oh Be blessed ! Such a sweet post and i am so sorry that you have to go through this. I think loosing a child is the hardest trial.
This is a great support group. More people should know about this !
Very nice blog and enjoyed your posts.
Happy blog hop ! Come follow me back and see my blog !
XO

Marah said...

i'm a new follower. can't wait to read more of your posts.

i'd love for you to come by my blog and follow back :)

http://diaryofadevildogwife.com

Sabina Bint Benjamin said...

This was a very touching post and it reminds us just how precious and fleeting this life is, that we are not alone in our struggles and that how losing a loved one so near in relation as a child or in my case a parent is a huge test that requires patience and acceptance.

Stay strong and supportive,

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