Like a flood...

I was sitting here reading blog posts and I came across this one...and as much as I knew I shouldn't keep reading, I just felt so compelled to read their story anyways... http://roscommonacres.com/2010/12/what-happened/

Of course, it immediately brought back the emotions I have that are all currently held up by a giant floodwall...I read, and I cried, and I kept reading, and I relived those moments through this mother's eyes...because I know where she's been, and I know where she's headed...

The hardest part of reading this blog post was scrolling to a few posts afterwards (http://roscommonacres.com/) and seeing that she had posted stories just a couple of days before the horrible accident not having any clue what was going to happen 2 days later...it just made me remember how quickly life changes in an instant....one day you think you have all the time in the world to spend with your baby, and the next thing you know, time has run out much earlier than you would ever even consider the possibility.

I felt compelled to write something after reading her story because it's been so long since I've really written....written anything filled with true emotion the way I used to in those first couple of years...I can't even remember the last time I wrote about my little angel....it just hurts too much to do so....

And I'm not going to do it now either....but I wanted to just acknowledge this moment...for myself if anything....

My dear, sweet, sweet angel...I love you...I miss you...I think of you every day...and I hope you've made lots of other little angel friends along your way, such as the sweet little boy in the story in the above link.

For others reading this who have lost a child, or know someone who has, I encourage you to look into a support group called The Compassionate Friends.  They were truly a God-send for me in my deepest time of grief and now, 4 years later, I continue to be involved in the organization for so many reasons...

My angel, Avery James Lent